Friday, February 19, 2010

Grandparents - A Love Story

Kathleen and I often go to Corpus Christi to visit her sister and her husband. Since their oldest daughter has had two daughters and now a son, they've been thrilled to be grandparents. There's a lot of love going on there.

Love is what it's all about. But this kind of love of family isn't automatic.

As a youth I was an "Army brat," so I moved from place to place and didn’t get to spend much time with my grandparents. My grandfather on my mother's side was a foreman at a Kennicott open-pit copper mine in Nevada. In 1954, when I was nine, my family, which included five children at the time, piled into our 1951 Mercury and drove from Missouri to Nevada for one of our rare visits.

McGill was a small Mormon town. Back then none of the streets were paved and the main street looked exactly like a town out of a western movie. The businesses on both sides of the street had wooden porches and swinging doors. I was a Cub Scout and collected coins, so I was impressed that everyone spent silver dollars.

The first morning, my grandfather gave me a bowl of oatmeal. “Eat up. It’ll give you muscles,” he said, flexing his biceps. As I ate the tasteless porridge, he told me this story:

Your mother's very special to me, you know. I’m a righteous man today because of her. When she was a baby, we lived in a cabin in the country. We had no car, and we had to walk everywhere. Back then I drank alcohol. There was an awful winter night, three feet of snow had piled up, and I had too much to drink. I reached for my glass and knocked the iron off the ironing board, and it fell on little Beatrice, who was crawling on the floor. I left the house to find a doctor and before long, I was lost. I knew that if I didn’t find my way, I would die and your momma would die. I cried and prayed to the Lord to help me. I told Him that if He would help me save little Beatrice, I would give up drink and dedicate the rest of my life to the work of God. I pressed on and found the doctor. We got your momma fixed up, she grew up to be a beautiful woman, and I've dedicated my life to the Lord ever since.

Afterwards, Grandpa took Mom and me to see the mine. We got out of the car, and I followed them to the edge of a panorama that took my breath away. We stood before a man-made pit that was about a mile across. Huge earthmovers several hundred feet below us, almost too small to see, were busy scooping and loading dirt. I didn't want to join them on the edge of the precipice. There was no railing. What if we fell off? What if the earth gave way beneath us?
My body shook with fear as I went to them. They held my hands.

I loved my grandfather.

Sunday the family went to services in one of the two Mormon churches. These were the largest buildings in town, constructed in the architecture of the early pioneers. It seemed as if the whole community showed up for Sunday School. In Missouri, our church services never had more than 20 people. Here, the authority of the church was pervasive, palpable.

Mom was the eighth of sixteen children, and three of my aunts were still living at home. The youngest, Janey, two years older than I, was bigger, stronger and wiser. One morning, she and I were playing in the living room. Our contest reached a physical stage and she grabbed me from behind. I turned hard to free myself and she fell to the floor. In one motion, my grandmother leaned forward, lifted her massive weight out of her chair and slapped me as hard as she could across my face.

“You don’t shove girls,” she said with a frown, and fell back into her chair.

I was on the floor, the left side of my face hot and stinging. Surprised and stunned, I struggled to keep from crying. "We were just playing. I didn't hurt her," I said.

She gave me a cold look. She didn't appreciate this challenge to her authority. "I don't care. Don't ever do it again."

I turned my head towards the living room window, a blaze of white light. I didn't want to look at my grandmother's face, and I didn't look at her again during that visit. When the family left, I didn't say goodbye to her, and we never returned to McGill. I never saw my grandmother again, and I never again thought of her with affection. It was as if a small flame in my little-boy-heart had been blown out by a winter wind, extinguished forever.


Post by Dennis E. Coates, Ph.D., , Copyright 2010. Building Personal Strength .

2 comments:

Paula said...

Wonderful memories about your grandparents. The post was heart-felt and loving. A little bit more of your story was revealed.

Thanks.

Jane said...

What a powerful story! Your reaction to your grandmother's discipline was a reminder to me that actions are hard to undo. I enjoyed your insights. Thank you.